Recent Experience...

I've just sat for my CIMA professional papers which ended on last Thursday.
It was my first attempt, and it really gives me a very different experience which I hardly being able to make a distinction wheter it is a good or a bad one...

I am very certain that I would fail all my 3 papers although I wish otherwise.
Initially I thought this would be another typical exam which requires hardwork and practices to grant me a pass which is the 50% mark. (mind this,merely to pass and not score)
When I sat for the first paper, I was totally blown away and you know, my hand was trembling and heart pounds wildly!
I wrote whatever I could and didn't stop writing and calculating till the very last second of the 3 hours time period.
When I stopped, it was really devastating because the questions that I didn't answer were summed up nearly 50%.
I could barely walked out from the exam hall, I could not feel my legs as it would be.
I've never faced with such huge defeat before in my life...
Not even in badminton or basketball or any exams or in love...
I would say, this is the first defeat that I took it in a conscious mind and indulged in it.
It's unbearable......

This is not the way I planned for...
For the other papers too, facing the same reality as the first one...

I doesn't want to describe the other papers in detail because my intention is not to tell you all about that. But to emphasise on the PROCESS of the examination period...
During the exam period, in the middle of the night...
I felt very exhausted and had not been sleeping for 3 days. To make things worse, that I have to hold those failure in me...
Deep in me,
I wanted to scream it out loud.
I wanted to punch the wall.
I wanted to crash myself on the way home.

It's hard to bear those feelings simultaneously... Tired, failure, worry, and scared.
I was considering of giving up this path.
"Why would you want to take this path when there's another simpler one?"

Guys...This is what I want to point out. Perhaps you all may have encountered this in your life somewhere, somehow...

But please bear in mind, Never consider giving up as an option.
It is not a solution, it is a cowardy means of evading the problem.
Put your best into it and don't let your heart to have even the slightest chance to regret in the future.
If you give up, later in life you may hear yourself saying "I should have finish that off...... "
"should have" but not "I had" !
You choose....
No man wants to live in regret.


My result, yes, very certain would be a fail.
But the process itself has a great impact on me, my determination.
I stayed on and move with the growth, at which at the same time I could have destroyed the whole progress with a simple decision of giving up.
Remember, the choice is yours...

A person, should never place strong emphasis on the RESULT.
But one should focus and experience the PROCESS itself!
It is the process that will teach us something, not the result.
Life is a learning process not an one-off event...

How to stay FRESH!~

The Japanese have always loved fresh fish. But the waters close to Japan have not held many fish for decades. So to feed the Japanese population, fishing boats got bigger and went farther than ever. The farther the fishermen went, the longer it took to bring in the fish. If the return trip took more than a few days, the fish were not fresh. The Japanese did not like the taste. To solve this problem, fishing companies installed freezers on their boats. They would catch the fish and freeze them at sea. Freezers allowed the boats to go farther and stay longer. However, the Japanese could taste the difference between fresh and frozen and they did not like frozen fish. 
The frozen fish brought a lower price. 

So fishing companies installed fish tanks. They would catch the fish and stuff them in the tanks. After a little thrashing around, the fish stopped moving. They were tired and dull, but alive. Unfortunately, the Japanese could still taste the difference. Because the fish did not move for days, they lost their fresh-fish taste. 

The Japanese preferred the lively taste of fresh fish, not sluggish fish. So how did Japanese fishing companies solve this problem? How do they get fresh-tasting fish to Japan? If you were consulting the fish industry, what would you recommend? 

How Japanese Fish Stay Fresh: 
To keep the fish tasting fresh, the Japanese fishing companies still put the fish in the tanks. But now they add a small shark to each tank. The shark eats a few fish, but most of the fish arrive in a very lively state. The fish are challenged. 

Have you realized that some of us are also living in a pond but most of the time tired & dull, so we need a Shark in our life to keep us awake and moving? 

Basically in our lives Sharks are new challenges to keep us active and taste better..... The more intelligent, persistent and competent you are, the more you enjoy a challenge. 

If your challenges are the correct size, and if you are steadily conquering those challenges, you are Conqueror.. You think of your challenges and get energized. You are excited to try new solutions. You have fun. You are alive! 

Recommendations for us: 

1. Instead of avoiding challenges, jump into them. Beat the heck out of them. Enjoy the game. If your challenges are too large or too numerous, do not give up. Failing makes you tired. Instead, reorganize. Find more determination, more knowledge, more help. 

2. God didn't promise days without pain, laughter without sorrow, sun without rain, but he did promise strength for the day, comfort for the tears and light for the way. 

3. Disappointments are like road bumps, they slow you down a bit but you enjoy the smooth road afterwards.. Don't stay on the bumps too long. Move on! 

4. When you feel down because you didn't get what you want, just sit tight and be happy, because God has thought of something better to give you. When something happens to you, good or bad, consider what it means. There's a purpose to life's events, to teach you how to laugh more or not to cry too hard. 

5. No one can go back and make a brand new start. But anyone can start from now and make a brand new ending. So, Show me the SHARK ! 

Important Everyone~~

Please spare some time to read this. 
I use my name because it's not something that I copied and pasted info that will be wasting your time reading it...

I came to know about this QuestNet from a friend.
Not going to elaborate much about that because that's not the point.

If any people were to persuade you to invest in this thing, PLEASE stay away from it.
It is a company which based in HK and claimed was established in 1998 and operating in more than 220 countries worldwide.
They will persuade you to join by means of really really lucrative commissions that you will received when you get more people into it... But, you have to invest about RM2k or so in it.

It is said to be using a Multi-Level Marketing (MLM) system.
And with this system,the commissions you are to be received will be very attractive because it's based on the number of member you managed to get. And even when your member managed to get a new member,you'll be getting that part of commission too. This have a compounding effect which makes the commissions looks attractive.

Why the company willing to pay such commissions?
They explained that by using this system, the distribution points are lower and so the distribution costs are lower compared to the traditional method.

All that are only true THEORITICALLY...

In practice, a sales manager wouldn't want to adopt such system because how are they going to operate efficiently when they are using a system (which means through the members) that they can't exercise control and how reliable are they to help achieve the sales target? 

So, in terms of practicability it is very low. And, I've never seen any company using MLM system thus far. Not even Wal-Mart...


I decided to write this is to prevent you all from stepping into this trap.
Because when they are persuading you by explaining about this marketing system,it sounds so real and possible to happen...
So, always bear this in mind, think about the practicability then you may at least wake yourself from this kind of scam.

And also, I have to admit they are quite well planned in this scam.
When I was doing my research on this, there are quite a few things I have to point out.
1) They have offices in Amcorp Mall and around PJ.
2) They have a well built website which have all the elements of a typical company would have.
3) There is Press Releases and News which show they are somewhat known.
4) If you really try to google about it, there are really many people who are supporting this company.
5) And you can even find many comments that trying to put this company back to position after some cases or being labeled as scam.
*All these are really convincing enough to make you believe this company exists and operating quite well... No doubt many people would fall prey to this.

Now, here's my opinion and my standpoint after a thorough research about them...
They have registered a company but with another name as Lotus Marketing, this company operates excatly the same business line as it was with the original QuestNet. They do this is actually trying to continue their scam since that QuestNet already has bad names on it and even banned in certain countries. Why would a company register in a different name and having the goodwill built in their existing company to be disposed of just like that? I said this because they are not venturing into a new business line...

And, if you were to really check on those Press Releases and News, the articles are published in magazines and news in 3rd world countries which I believe doesn't really have strict regulations on their publications.

About why so many people still supporting it since it's considered a scam among some of us...
As you know, I've mentioned how the commissions are paid based on the MLM system. They are actually to expand their circle of members that will ultimately result in higher pay of commission that was promised. These guys are just so sefish to be "just try and wait for the pay" or being ignorant that since it's a scam so they try to get back what they have actually invested... Because afterall, they don't want to lose money and accept the fact.

Here is one very very important point...
As I said, I admit they are really very well planned in this... 
Because they have prepared all those that I've mentioned to convince people into believing this.
But I've spotted some flaw, maybe one could never thought of...
This is some kind of forensic investigation! HAHA! I should have study Forensic Accounting lar...

Okay.. Here it is.
There's no information about the company background to prove its registration with any countries Registrar and there's no information about this company back to the year of its establishment...

The oldest post/comments/news about this company only as back as at year 2002 only.
And during year 2003 to 2004 there's nothing about this QuestNet.
In year 2005 there's only some people who were discussing wheter QuestNet is a scam or not, and there's no one who is supporting QuestNet at that time. 
So, assume that the supporter of QuestNet are actually those who are in it which means the scammers.
That means, they are not operating in year 2003 till the end of the year of 2005.
Then in year 2006, it's quite a big issue because there's many many discussions about QuestNet in that year.And there's suddenly soooo many supporter compared to 2005 which I really don't see any (not even 1)...
In year 2007 is very similar to the year 2005 in which there's only discussion wheter it's a scam or not and there's no replies or comments from any supporters.
In year 2008 and 2009, it's again a big issue and soooo many supporters of QuestNet...

QuestNet never mention anything about any halts during their operation, that means it's supposed to be operating continuously all these years.
But from all the discussions in forums and websites, I've detected there's actually a trend!
I believe that in the years where there's no supporters of QuestNet, the QuestNet was actually not operating or maybe not operating actively.
So this scam is like, after a year or two, it disappears.After a year or two then it reappears.
After scamming people, then they disappear for some time.
They reappear when people start to forget about the scam...

About the years and discussions I never try to create story or boast about them...
You can try google it and go 1 by 1 the search results for like 20 pages and you see wheter what I say is true or not...


If they are truly a company, would they operate in such a manner?  
Definitely no... 


And I really really hope, there's no more people would go into this trap..
Especially my friends...
Please, if you really want to invest, go through the proper channel like investment banks and brokers.
There's no such investment in this world that would have a return on capital that is as high as 500% in such a short term.
That return would happen if you hold a stock long enough for at least 25 years and that particular company really prosper...

=)

Regards,
Jason.

Power in Your Hands...

We are entirely free to choose whatever we want.

The power is in your hands now,
and you are the one who chooses how to use that power in your own life.

You can choose :
To have a happier life today, or put if off until tomorrow.

What feels better?  You choose...

Love Relationship...

When it comes to love relationship, often people think that they want a particular person.

But if you think about it deeply, it is not the particular person that you want.

What you really want is to be blissfully happy with the perfect person.

Yet still you try and tell the Universe WHO that person is.-

If the Universe isn't delivering, then the message from the Universe is loud and clear;

"I just checked twenty years ahead, and the bliss and happiness you deserved will not happen in this relationship."

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Why is it that we think we know more than the one who can see everything.
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Happiness or Contentment...

A feeling that greater possessions, no matter of what kind they may be,
will of themselves bring contentment or happiness, is a misunderstanding.

No person, place or thing that can give you happiness.
They may give you a cause for happiness and a feeling of contentment,
but the Joy Of Living comes from within.

This is not the way...

My memory really have been deteriorating from day to day.
I think I've mentioned this before...
But this fact really bothers me.

I don't know why it happens...
The way my mind works now, are not the way it used to be.
I simply feel that, this is not me.

Anyone have suggestions on how to improve back my memory please do share with me.
This may seem not so important for you all.
But it really does mean something in my life...

I don't wanna live with relying on reminders around me.

The Truth?

Mystery Letter Gives Clues of the Murderer of Teoh : Translated to English :: 20-8-2009 

Disclaimer: The content of the mystery letter is yet to be investigated by the Independent Police Dept and is not yet admissible as evidence until it is proven true by independent investigation. Foremost, the DNA of the Top Ranking MACC Officer must be re-tested openly and independently. If the DNA sampling is found to match positively, then the rest of the content can be trusted. In the event of dispute, the original letter in Bahasa Malaysia shall prevail. 


 

RE: BRIBERY, MISCONDUCT AND CORRUPTION OF A SENIOR OFFICER OF MACC SELANGOR 


With due respect, we would like to refer to the above subject-matter. 

Please be informed that we, officers of the Malaysian Anti-Corruption Commission (MACC), feel obliged to expose the misconduct and bribery of a senior officer of MACC, DEPUTY DIRECTOR (DD) MACC Selangor known as PKPj I HISHAMUDDIN BIN HASHIM, in connection with the case of TEOH BENG HOCK and another case involving the bungalow of DATO' SERI DR MOHAMAD KHIR BIN TOYO in Section 7, Shah Alam, Selangor. 

2. For the kind information of YBhg Tan Sri/Dato/Tuan/Puan, the DD was directly involved in the investigations on the fraud case of the Selangor State Government's funds allocation for YB Ean (ADUN Seri Kembangan). His involvement was not just on official orders, but he has also been given instructions to his subordinates to find, with any means possible, any evidence of wrongdoing by the Selangor State Government. He acted in this manner as he had made a conspiracy with Khir Toyo to topple the state government of Selangor. As a consequence of his greed, it had resulted in the death of TEOH BENG HOCK. There arise a few suspicious questions for us, officers of the MACC Malaysia, regarding how Teoh Beng Hock could have died. We suspect of the DD's involvement in the death of Teoh Beng Hock as based on the following allegations: 

i) DD had ordered all MACC officers involved in the operation that he was not directly involved in the case. In fact, he was the one who gave all the orders in this operation and other operations of MACC Selangor. In fact, he was afraid to be involved directly because this could expose his conspiracy with Khir Toyo. 

ii) The chemists have discovered fingerprints and male DNA on the front side of both sides of Teoh Beng Hock's belt. Based on the knowledge of our officers of MACC Malaysia, DD has an individual style of interrogation techniques which include interrogating a suspect by holding the front of his belt, lifting him a few times while shaking him. 

iii) The process of collecting DNA from Selangor MACC officers was performed in 2 sessions. In the first session of collecting DNA, DD made every effort to evade from giving his DNA sample. The DD was said to have given his DNA sample in the second session, but suspicions arise because DD gave his DNA sample in the privacy of his own office while all other MACC officers including the MACC Director have given their DNA samples in a meeting room in the presence of many other individuals. Why did the DD give his DNA sample in a secretive manner? Was the DNA provided really his DNA? We, the officers of the MACC Malaysia, felt puzzled that there was no one else in the presence of the DD when he allegedly gave his DNA sample? We recommend that the DNA Test on the DD must be done again, witnessed by a group of people who can be trusted. 

iv) We have been informed that the DD had ordered his subordinates to erase/clean the fingerprints on the window that Teoh was believed to have fallen from. This proved so when the police could not find any signs of fingerprints, new or old, on the window. The question is, why did the DD order that to be done? 

v) We suspect, based on information we have obtained, that the DD did not clock out with his punch-card when he left the office on 16th of July 2009, at 6:10 am. This is important because it can prove that the DD was the last person to see Teoh. The question is why he did not clock out with his punch-card as he is a person who always punches his card. For record, he is very diligent with his punch-card.


3. For the information of YBhg Tan Sir/Dato/Tuan/Puan, the DD in question is very influential in the enforcement of investigation operations around Selangor and the rest of Malaysia. In MACC Selangor, he is the most important person who decides whether a case should be prosecuted even if the power should rest in the hands of the Deputy Public Prosecutor (DPP). His decision is prompted by his personal interests and those of his co-conspirators. So, it is no surprise that he led the MACC Selangor Investigative Unit for decades, at least since the Selangor state government was under the helm of the Barisan Nasional government (Khir Toyo) until now. He was promoted ahead of schedule, from Grade 41 to Grade 54, within a period of 16 years without transfer to other positions or locations other than that of the MACC Selangor. Based on the terms of employment of MACC, any officer who has been promoted or who has worked for more than 5 years in a State should be transferred to a different location to avoid the officer being involved in local bribery. One of the reasons he was never transferred is because he was tasked to "take care of" the position of Dato' Seri Dr Khir Toyo in Selangor. As a result, Khir Toyo also "took care of" his position in Selangor as a reciprocal favour. 

4. As a result of his position in MACC Selangor for these many years, he has been involved in various cases of bribery and misuse of power. Some of the incidents of bribery or misuse of power that we have investigated are as follows: 

i) Closing the case of Khir Toyo connected to the approval of a road construction project, in Sekinchan measuring 20.5 km valued at RM 92.5 million to a contractor that was nearly blacklisted, Meram Holdings. According to the JKR's estimates, the road should have cost less than RM 50 million. The subcontractor that did the work on the project was Cabaran Wangsa, owned by Pua Kim An, the landlord of a house that had once been rented by Khir, while another company director, Ahmad Tarmizi Tajjeury is Khir crony that was also given 100 acres of land at a profit to him of at least RM 20 million. 

ii) Possess assets that exceed his emoluments such as: 
a. Own a few rental houses of which one is a two storey terrace house that was purchased at an exceptional price from Pemaju Kumpulan Lebar Daun Development Sdn Bhd, as a result of the closing of the case against the Group Executive Chairman, Dato' Noor Azman @ Noor Hizam bin Mohd Nurdin. The case was investigated by then BPR Selangor for a few years together with various other houses owned by him. To avoid public and subordinate suspicions, he lived in the Government Quarters in Kg Atap, Kuala Lumpur. 

b. Own a Petronas petrol station on the left of the Federal Highway KM 8.6 - 8.7, Section 1, Federal Highway, Shah Alam, 40000 Selangor (near the Melati Roundabout, from Shah Alam to Klang bound, registered under the name of his brother. The petrol kiosk only just began operation this year (2009), part of which was built above a Chinese cemetery. He managed to get the site to build the petrol station because of his power, which was exercised during the period of Khir Toyo's government in Selangor. 

c. Own several plots of land around Shah Alam, in which one of them is believed to be beside the new SACC Mall registered under the name of a wife of a Selangor MACC driver named Abdullah b Azim, a full time homemaker in her late 30s.

 

iii) He has been caught in close proximity with a subordinate officer, Investigator rank, named Nor Azlina bt Mustafa at the side of the Shah Alam Lake in early year 2009 by 2 police officers. He showed his identification card (MACC) and informed the police officers that he and the officer were in the course of an operation and they were released. These "intimacies" between him and the Investigator were repeated and are a common knowledge of many including his own wife. The only action taken by the Department was to transfer the officer involved to the MACC Headquarters in Putrajaya. This was ineffective because Azlina is still always with the DD at the Selangor office. 

5. The objective of this letter is to uphold justice and prevent the further abuse of power especially in the MACC and throughout Malaysia. We in the MACC, are fed up to see his antics which have the blessings of the powers that be, like the sayings "beraja di mata, bersultan di hati". We in the MACC have lost all means to find departments/institutions/NGOs that can champion this issue so the appropriate action can be taken. 

6. We, the officers of the MACC, would be touched and thankful that YBhg Dato'/tuan/puan could expose this issue to the people and the authorities so that an organisation/NGO can take the appropriate action, or an independent investigation, can be taken and raised to the Cabinet. This is very important because it involves the integrity of a serving officer of a department that upholds the laws involving human integrity. The DD is now making every effort to press his subordinates to find any faults involving ruling PKR with the hope that the PKR-led government will fall in Selangor and his secret will be safe. For your information, the DD is now very afraid whenever news about Dato' Seri Khir Toyo is released in the press and he would be very afraid if the case would expose his involvement. 

7. We hope that any brave individuals or organizations can spread this information so that our actions can be brought to the attention of the responsible and trusted authorities and that justice can be done. We are unable to do it ourselves because he has "cable" with the higher authority. 

8. Cooperation from YBhg Tan Sri/Dato'/tuan/puan is much appreciated and we hope that through your action, much more information can be brought to light involving individuals with no integrity. We hope that this will cleanse the MACC and its officers from further involvement in bribery and corruption. 

Thank You.


"To serve for the beloved MACC/ Country"

 
We are by order of,
 
PEGAWAI-PEGAWAI SPRM MALAYSIA

This case now involve high rank individuals from the supposed "Highly Integrated Independent Body"...
This should be investigated by the Royal Commission and not merely an inquest!

The government have misled the people who are not really observant enough.
Yes,the cabinet had declared for the use of Royal Commission.
But! The Royal Commission are only assigned to investigate the MACC interrogation procedures and not to investigate the cause of death of Teoh Beng Hock!
It makes a big difference okay?!  
Damn!!

Is there still any justice in this country?
And,why I cant see any comments or suggestions of the pathologist from thailand?
I only see news that she arrived here in Malaysia and that's it, nothing more than that...
Is it they trying to make us believe that they really put in their "full effort" in employing the experts to assist in this investigations where the reality is not that case? 
Drama....?

If the final result of the inquest suggests that Teoh Beng Hock committed suicide, I believe justice will never exist in this country.
The one who have power,will remain having the power by suppressing others...
To make us feel that they are the one with power, they can do whatever they one and nothing could charge them... 
That's the situation when bribery happens everywhere, from goverment to police, to judiciary and legislation of the country.


I personally felt that he wont commit suicide.
I don't find any reason for him to do so.
He has not done anything wrong to the extent of suicide.
He doesn't owe people money.
He doesn't have conflicts with his own family.
And, his marriage was just around the corner before his death!


There's nothing much I want from the government.
I only need a pure justice for Teoh Beng Hock...

The Gift of My Life...

I've finished reading The Gift by Cecelia Ahern.

I'm really glad that I've read this book, for me to realize what is really important in my life.
We should appreciate everyone around us, especially our loved ones.

In our modern society, we have commonly confused ourselves that our main priority and objective in life is to have a great achievement in career.
A career...
A promotion means higher pay, along with more responsibilities and more time is needed.
More time on work result in less time for yourself, for your loved ones.

I don't want to put it a lengthy one here...

We should appreciate the time that we have.
I'm not only mean the great moments, but also the "TIME" in general...
Time that has gone, will never return.
Each second it goes, never stop and never wait for us...
Unlike money, golds or diamonds... Time cant be earned.

Appreciate the time you have...
Spend them wisely, doing what you really want in life.
If you don't know what you really want...
Take some time to think about this...

Imagine that your life would end anytime now,
if you're given a few hours more to be on this earth,
what would you do? 

To tell how much you love and appreciate the one that you love but never really show them all this while? 
To break the wall that builds between you and another person?
To play one last badminton match?

It's all in yourself.
You will discover them in yourself, your true self...

We all wouldn't want to leave in regret right?


Time is the best gift on earth...

    =)

Why?

Why are you keep doing all this to me?
You have another bf and why now keep spreading words about me?
I didnt do anything, as I could only stare at all this.

You are telling everyone as if I'm the one who let go of our love.
Yes, I am the one who called it off. But you are the one who have another guy with you.
You are forcing me to a situation where I can't pretend that I don't know anymore.
How long could I pretend to be nothing?
You are in love with another guy and you tell your friends that I'm the one who let go of you?
Think about it...


And please, stop accusing me for "spying" on you or things like that.
Don't forget that you are studying in my former school!
If you're not doing it publicly, no one would have knew about it.
And those rumors wouldn't come from my friends themselves.
I assured my friends that everything is okay.

When I asked you about your relationship with another guy, you will accuse me of not having the trust on you.
Speaking about trust... I'm seriously very hate this word!
It's not that I dont put my trust on anyone.
It's that, you have been abusing the usage of the word TRUST!

You have been disloyal with me, when I questioned, you would use "TRUST" as your shield.
I can say no more. If I were to speak up, you would say I dont trust you.
This is not about trusting each other anymore as you have abused it.
A trust does not give you the power to be disloyal.

Since the day I called it off, I've only been quiet and observe.
You were telling everyone about it as if you are trying to declare that you are now single.
Don't flare me before you guys think. Whether what I'm saying is true or not.
At that time, I was wondering, as I was so sad and could hardly speak a word but she was so active in declaring them.
It's not that time have passed and she had overcome it. It was rather just a few hours apart...
I was wondering, doesn't we came out from the same love relationship?
How come she was like looking forward for this ending?
Don't ask me why as myself also don't know why she did.

After a merely 3 days... 3 DAYS! She has been declaring to the world that she have another bf.
I wonder how the love developed so fast?
I'm not trying to be sarcastic here, but it really came to my mind...
Do you ever wonder how would I feel?

I know, your friends would stand by your side.
For them, what you told them is the right one, and they wont feel anything wrong with what you've done.
If you all were to take a step backwards, and judge this situation with a neutral prejudice, I guess the outcome would be different.

I am here not to have a war of words or discriminating her.
I just want to have my stand as I don't want everyone to have a bad perception of me because I know she had been spreading words of me.
Especially the people around her, because I dont know you all personally.
So, you all would rather believe her words over mine.

All this while I've only been quiet and observe.
Because I dont want to create anything bad or provocations.
But what you've done lately really disappoint me.

You have another guy with you now, but that doesn't grant you any authority to tarnish my image.
Do you think I am very happy typing all this?
We are once lovers. But, it doesn't seem so to you.
I don't know, whether is this a betrayal?
I never want to find the answer...
As all these have enough stabs on me...

You have tore me into pieces.