Saturday, August 29, 2009

Love Relationship...

When it comes to love relationship, often people think that they want a particular person.

But if you think about it deeply, it is not the particular person that you want.

What you really want is to be blissfully happy with the perfect person.

Yet still you try and tell the Universe WHO that person is.-

If the Universe isn't delivering, then the message from the Universe is loud and clear;

"I just checked twenty years ahead, and the bliss and happiness you deserved will not happen in this relationship."

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Why is it that we think we know more than the one who can see everything.
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Friday, August 28, 2009

Happiness or Contentment...

A feeling that greater possessions, no matter of what kind they may be,
will of themselves bring contentment or happiness, is a misunderstanding.

No person, place or thing that can give you happiness.
They may give you a cause for happiness and a feeling of contentment,
but the Joy Of Living comes from within.

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

This is not the way...

My memory really have been deteriorating from day to day.
I think I've mentioned this before...
But this fact really bothers me.

I don't know why it happens...
The way my mind works now, are not the way it used to be.
I simply feel that, this is not me.

Anyone have suggestions on how to improve back my memory please do share with me.
This may seem not so important for you all.
But it really does mean something in my life...

I don't wanna live with relying on reminders around me.

Friday, August 21, 2009

The Truth?

Mystery Letter Gives Clues of the Murderer of Teoh : Translated to English :: 20-8-2009 

Disclaimer: The content of the mystery letter is yet to be investigated by the Independent Police Dept and is not yet admissible as evidence until it is proven true by independent investigation. Foremost, the DNA of the Top Ranking MACC Officer must be re-tested openly and independently. If the DNA sampling is found to match positively, then the rest of the content can be trusted. In the event of dispute, the original letter in Bahasa Malaysia shall prevail. 


 

RE: BRIBERY, MISCONDUCT AND CORRUPTION OF A SENIOR OFFICER OF MACC SELANGOR 


With due respect, we would like to refer to the above subject-matter. 

Please be informed that we, officers of the Malaysian Anti-Corruption Commission (MACC), feel obliged to expose the misconduct and bribery of a senior officer of MACC, DEPUTY DIRECTOR (DD) MACC Selangor known as PKPj I HISHAMUDDIN BIN HASHIM, in connection with the case of TEOH BENG HOCK and another case involving the bungalow of DATO' SERI DR MOHAMAD KHIR BIN TOYO in Section 7, Shah Alam, Selangor. 

2. For the kind information of YBhg Tan Sri/Dato/Tuan/Puan, the DD was directly involved in the investigations on the fraud case of the Selangor State Government's funds allocation for YB Ean (ADUN Seri Kembangan). His involvement was not just on official orders, but he has also been given instructions to his subordinates to find, with any means possible, any evidence of wrongdoing by the Selangor State Government. He acted in this manner as he had made a conspiracy with Khir Toyo to topple the state government of Selangor. As a consequence of his greed, it had resulted in the death of TEOH BENG HOCK. There arise a few suspicious questions for us, officers of the MACC Malaysia, regarding how Teoh Beng Hock could have died. We suspect of the DD's involvement in the death of Teoh Beng Hock as based on the following allegations: 

i) DD had ordered all MACC officers involved in the operation that he was not directly involved in the case. In fact, he was the one who gave all the orders in this operation and other operations of MACC Selangor. In fact, he was afraid to be involved directly because this could expose his conspiracy with Khir Toyo. 

ii) The chemists have discovered fingerprints and male DNA on the front side of both sides of Teoh Beng Hock's belt. Based on the knowledge of our officers of MACC Malaysia, DD has an individual style of interrogation techniques which include interrogating a suspect by holding the front of his belt, lifting him a few times while shaking him. 

iii) The process of collecting DNA from Selangor MACC officers was performed in 2 sessions. In the first session of collecting DNA, DD made every effort to evade from giving his DNA sample. The DD was said to have given his DNA sample in the second session, but suspicions arise because DD gave his DNA sample in the privacy of his own office while all other MACC officers including the MACC Director have given their DNA samples in a meeting room in the presence of many other individuals. Why did the DD give his DNA sample in a secretive manner? Was the DNA provided really his DNA? We, the officers of the MACC Malaysia, felt puzzled that there was no one else in the presence of the DD when he allegedly gave his DNA sample? We recommend that the DNA Test on the DD must be done again, witnessed by a group of people who can be trusted. 

iv) We have been informed that the DD had ordered his subordinates to erase/clean the fingerprints on the window that Teoh was believed to have fallen from. This proved so when the police could not find any signs of fingerprints, new or old, on the window. The question is, why did the DD order that to be done? 

v) We suspect, based on information we have obtained, that the DD did not clock out with his punch-card when he left the office on 16th of July 2009, at 6:10 am. This is important because it can prove that the DD was the last person to see Teoh. The question is why he did not clock out with his punch-card as he is a person who always punches his card. For record, he is very diligent with his punch-card.


3. For the information of YBhg Tan Sir/Dato/Tuan/Puan, the DD in question is very influential in the enforcement of investigation operations around Selangor and the rest of Malaysia. In MACC Selangor, he is the most important person who decides whether a case should be prosecuted even if the power should rest in the hands of the Deputy Public Prosecutor (DPP). His decision is prompted by his personal interests and those of his co-conspirators. So, it is no surprise that he led the MACC Selangor Investigative Unit for decades, at least since the Selangor state government was under the helm of the Barisan Nasional government (Khir Toyo) until now. He was promoted ahead of schedule, from Grade 41 to Grade 54, within a period of 16 years without transfer to other positions or locations other than that of the MACC Selangor. Based on the terms of employment of MACC, any officer who has been promoted or who has worked for more than 5 years in a State should be transferred to a different location to avoid the officer being involved in local bribery. One of the reasons he was never transferred is because he was tasked to "take care of" the position of Dato' Seri Dr Khir Toyo in Selangor. As a result, Khir Toyo also "took care of" his position in Selangor as a reciprocal favour. 

4. As a result of his position in MACC Selangor for these many years, he has been involved in various cases of bribery and misuse of power. Some of the incidents of bribery or misuse of power that we have investigated are as follows: 

i) Closing the case of Khir Toyo connected to the approval of a road construction project, in Sekinchan measuring 20.5 km valued at RM 92.5 million to a contractor that was nearly blacklisted, Meram Holdings. According to the JKR's estimates, the road should have cost less than RM 50 million. The subcontractor that did the work on the project was Cabaran Wangsa, owned by Pua Kim An, the landlord of a house that had once been rented by Khir, while another company director, Ahmad Tarmizi Tajjeury is Khir crony that was also given 100 acres of land at a profit to him of at least RM 20 million. 

ii) Possess assets that exceed his emoluments such as: 
a. Own a few rental houses of which one is a two storey terrace house that was purchased at an exceptional price from Pemaju Kumpulan Lebar Daun Development Sdn Bhd, as a result of the closing of the case against the Group Executive Chairman, Dato' Noor Azman @ Noor Hizam bin Mohd Nurdin. The case was investigated by then BPR Selangor for a few years together with various other houses owned by him. To avoid public and subordinate suspicions, he lived in the Government Quarters in Kg Atap, Kuala Lumpur. 

b. Own a Petronas petrol station on the left of the Federal Highway KM 8.6 - 8.7, Section 1, Federal Highway, Shah Alam, 40000 Selangor (near the Melati Roundabout, from Shah Alam to Klang bound, registered under the name of his brother. The petrol kiosk only just began operation this year (2009), part of which was built above a Chinese cemetery. He managed to get the site to build the petrol station because of his power, which was exercised during the period of Khir Toyo's government in Selangor. 

c. Own several plots of land around Shah Alam, in which one of them is believed to be beside the new SACC Mall registered under the name of a wife of a Selangor MACC driver named Abdullah b Azim, a full time homemaker in her late 30s.

 

iii) He has been caught in close proximity with a subordinate officer, Investigator rank, named Nor Azlina bt Mustafa at the side of the Shah Alam Lake in early year 2009 by 2 police officers. He showed his identification card (MACC) and informed the police officers that he and the officer were in the course of an operation and they were released. These "intimacies" between him and the Investigator were repeated and are a common knowledge of many including his own wife. The only action taken by the Department was to transfer the officer involved to the MACC Headquarters in Putrajaya. This was ineffective because Azlina is still always with the DD at the Selangor office. 

5. The objective of this letter is to uphold justice and prevent the further abuse of power especially in the MACC and throughout Malaysia. We in the MACC, are fed up to see his antics which have the blessings of the powers that be, like the sayings "beraja di mata, bersultan di hati". We in the MACC have lost all means to find departments/institutions/NGOs that can champion this issue so the appropriate action can be taken. 

6. We, the officers of the MACC, would be touched and thankful that YBhg Dato'/tuan/puan could expose this issue to the people and the authorities so that an organisation/NGO can take the appropriate action, or an independent investigation, can be taken and raised to the Cabinet. This is very important because it involves the integrity of a serving officer of a department that upholds the laws involving human integrity. The DD is now making every effort to press his subordinates to find any faults involving ruling PKR with the hope that the PKR-led government will fall in Selangor and his secret will be safe. For your information, the DD is now very afraid whenever news about Dato' Seri Khir Toyo is released in the press and he would be very afraid if the case would expose his involvement. 

7. We hope that any brave individuals or organizations can spread this information so that our actions can be brought to the attention of the responsible and trusted authorities and that justice can be done. We are unable to do it ourselves because he has "cable" with the higher authority. 

8. Cooperation from YBhg Tan Sri/Dato'/tuan/puan is much appreciated and we hope that through your action, much more information can be brought to light involving individuals with no integrity. We hope that this will cleanse the MACC and its officers from further involvement in bribery and corruption. 

Thank You.


"To serve for the beloved MACC/ Country"

 
We are by order of,
 
PEGAWAI-PEGAWAI SPRM MALAYSIA


This case now involve high rank individuals from the supposed "Highly Integrated Independent Body"...
This should be investigated by the Royal Commission and not merely an inquest!

The government have misled the people who are not really observant enough.
Yes,the cabinet had declared for the use of Royal Commission.
But! The Royal Commission are only assigned to investigate the MACC interrogation procedures and not to investigate the cause of death of Teoh Beng Hock!
It makes a big difference okay?!  
Damn!!

Is there still any justice in this country?
And,why I cant see any comments or suggestions of the pathologist from thailand?
I only see news that she arrived here in Malaysia and that's it, nothing more than that...
Is it they trying to make us believe that they really put in their "full effort" in employing the experts to assist in this investigations where the reality is not that case? 
Drama....?

If the final result of the inquest suggests that Teoh Beng Hock committed suicide, I believe justice will never exist in this country.
The one who have power,will remain having the power by suppressing others...
To make us feel that they are the one with power, they can do whatever they one and nothing could charge them... 
That's the situation when bribery happens everywhere, from goverment to police, to judiciary and legislation of the country.


I personally felt that he wont commit suicide.
I don't find any reason for him to do so.
He has not done anything wrong to the extent of suicide.
He doesn't owe people money.
He doesn't have conflicts with his own family.
And, his marriage was just around the corner before his death!


There's nothing much I want from the government.
I only need a pure justice for Teoh Beng Hock...

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

The Gift of My Life...

I've finished reading The Gift by Cecelia Ahern.

I'm really glad that I've read this book, for me to realize what is really important in my life.
We should appreciate everyone around us, especially our loved ones.

In our modern society, we have commonly confused ourselves that our main priority and objective in life is to have a great achievement in career.
A career...
A promotion means higher pay, along with more responsibilities and more time is needed.
More time on work result in less time for yourself, for your loved ones.

I don't want to put it a lengthy one here...

We should appreciate the time that we have.
I'm not only mean the great moments, but also the "TIME" in general...
Time that has gone, will never return.
Each second it goes, never stop and never wait for us...
Unlike money, golds or diamonds... Time cant be earned.

Appreciate the time you have...
Spend them wisely, doing what you really want in life.
If you don't know what you really want...
Take some time to think about this...

Imagine that your life would end anytime now,
if you're given a few hours more to be on this earth,
what would you do? 

To tell how much you love and appreciate the one that you love but never really show them all this while? 
To break the wall that builds between you and another person?
To play one last badminton match?

It's all in yourself.
You will discover them in yourself, your true self...

We all wouldn't want to leave in regret right?


Time is the best gift on earth...

    =)

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

Why?

Why are you keep doing all this to me?
You have another bf and why now keep spreading words about me?
I didnt do anything, as I could only stare at all this.

You are telling everyone as if I'm the one who let go of our love.
Yes, I am the one who called it off. But you are the one who have another guy with you.
You are forcing me to a situation where I can't pretend that I don't know anymore.
How long could I pretend to be nothing?
You are in love with another guy and you tell your friends that I'm the one who let go of you?
Think about it...


And please, stop accusing me for "spying" on you or things like that.
Don't forget that you are studying in my former school!
If you're not doing it publicly, no one would have knew about it.
And those rumors wouldn't come from my friends themselves.
I assured my friends that everything is okay.

When I asked you about your relationship with another guy, you will accuse me of not having the trust on you.
Speaking about trust... I'm seriously very hate this word!
It's not that I dont put my trust on anyone.
It's that, you have been abusing the usage of the word TRUST!

You have been disloyal with me, when I questioned, you would use "TRUST" as your shield.
I can say no more. If I were to speak up, you would say I dont trust you.
This is not about trusting each other anymore as you have abused it.
A trust does not give you the power to be disloyal.

Since the day I called it off, I've only been quiet and observe.
You were telling everyone about it as if you are trying to declare that you are now single.
Don't flare me before you guys think. Whether what I'm saying is true or not.
At that time, I was wondering, as I was so sad and could hardly speak a word but she was so active in declaring them.
It's not that time have passed and she had overcome it. It was rather just a few hours apart...
I was wondering, doesn't we came out from the same love relationship?
How come she was like looking forward for this ending?
Don't ask me why as myself also don't know why she did.

After a merely 3 days... 3 DAYS! She has been declaring to the world that she have another bf.
I wonder how the love developed so fast?
I'm not trying to be sarcastic here, but it really came to my mind...
Do you ever wonder how would I feel?

I know, your friends would stand by your side.
For them, what you told them is the right one, and they wont feel anything wrong with what you've done.
If you all were to take a step backwards, and judge this situation with a neutral prejudice, I guess the outcome would be different.

I am here not to have a war of words or discriminating her.
I just want to have my stand as I don't want everyone to have a bad perception of me because I know she had been spreading words of me.
Especially the people around her, because I dont know you all personally.
So, you all would rather believe her words over mine.

All this while I've only been quiet and observe.
Because I dont want to create anything bad or provocations.
But what you've done lately really disappoint me.

You have another guy with you now, but that doesn't grant you any authority to tarnish my image.
Do you think I am very happy typing all this?
We are once lovers. But, it doesn't seem so to you.
I don't know, whether is this a betrayal?
I never want to find the answer...
As all these have enough stabs on me...

You have tore me into pieces.